aiyyaaa .

i dont care abt me no more lla .
let me live in this world full of lies . world of denial .
where thr s HYPOCRITE , LIARS , and . . . . . more HYPOCRITES everywhere .

i m still under my PMS mood . so . seriously , i dun really notice if wat i did or said or ANTH affect myself or others . its like . some stuff is taking over my whole soul . and i m lost somewher FAR , FAR AWAY .

the moment i wake up every morning, i dint feel mahself . i felt left behind , even in my own room .
it got worst in school .
sumtimes , i felt myself trying to REACH to my fellow friends . ( i tried not to use any "" to the friends . dumbshit) .
the only one that lends me her / his listening ears in school is ______ and i jes wanna sae THANK YOU .




i HATE HATE HATE PMS !!!!!
it fills my mind with negative thoughts and seriously , i felt dead most of the time .
i m sooooo glad i m an ass S .
" keeping most of her feelings to herself"
and that irritate some of mah fren cos i was being too unpredictable .hahas . sorry guys .
i ll still continue SMILING .
its up tuh u tuh decide what i am really feeling .
( and onli a few said they noe by looking into mah eyes . and she is someone that i truly love , but i dunno wat the fuck is going on now ) .








i read her blog again .
as usual , i jes put on a smile and jes thought to myself " fine fine . you win . i lose . my fault blahblahblah " .
i dun give a fucking damn abt stuff in sku lahr .
man . sori sori ., my fault my fault .
( but one thing . i dinno that farhana , syamirah and all arent our friend . i think they are jes strangers in our eyes . shrugs . who cares ? * ooops . she cares ) .


aaaarrr . ( note to -ai# : SMILE AND DONT CARE !! ) .
the moment i reachd sku . _____ told me abt sth .
and WOAH did her words break my heart ( not HER WORDS laa . but the content ) .
and fuckeddd . . i nearly cry siaa ( see . PMS also make u one cry baby ) .
* i even ignore him TOTALLY and JELING at him . that bad yeah *
but phewww . smile did the trick .
( fuck those smile . let me jes SCREAM !!) .
in school . kinda boring . ehh ehh ., NO NO NO .
it was kinda ok actually . cos i concentrate better .
no monday blues , for the FIRST TIME !
maybe cos my mind is full of this horrible incident . which i dun care anymore .
yeah . maybe that s y ;

so . yeah .
we still talked normally . but i still cn feel that GUAI -ness lahr .
and that someone gave me that bloody irritating SHICKED look ( haha ) when she saw me talking tuh her . hahahahas .


oh yeah ,. THANKS MS YEE !!
she gave me an additional 3 marks for social studies test . eeehhh . 3 marks a lot u noe . nyahahahas .
thank you thank you .








pon-ned both higher malay and physics remedial .
no mood anw .
jes study at home and stuff .
thats that .
blahrs .

yeah .
so . let me get all fucked up here . its PMS anyway . so . FARKING OFF . . . . ( isnt that wat u wanted ? u got it, babe ) .