i m such a fuckhead .
thr s no need to say "i told you so" or "glad that she 's realised it" . cos this ass s already realised it longlonglong time ago .
fuck fuck fuck .
history's repeating itself , and its BAD .

again .
again .
again .
and this time , i ll jes admit its my fault , AGAIN .
i m the one who caused this friendship of ours to be fcuked up .
i m the one who s being inconsiderate , WTF . I M JES A USELESS FRIEND OK .

its onli the 14th january . & things are already becoming badddddd .



let jes say .
i m the kind of "friend" who :
- says nvm in everything . bully me , make me the laughing stock , wht i ll do ? HAHAHAA , NEVERMIND and give thay shiity smile of mine .
YOU noe why ? i jes cnt be bothered to argue . i care for UR (general term) happiness . my happiness ? who gives a fcuk .
as long as i think u guys are happy , its ok with me .
seriously . my "ITS OK" isnt jes empty words .
it either means that i m REALLY ok , or i ll TRY to be ok , which is definitely NOT a problem , thanks to my HECKCARE attitude .

- "we're all in this together !"
chandini , did u realise that if thr s sth that we planned & at last u coulnt make it or sth , i would not do it too ?
& i think we both noe tht both of us hate doing things alone etc ?
yes . it didnt bother me at all when u said u couldnt make it yesterday .
it was SERIOUSLY ok , pls believe that .
it s only REPUBLIC lahr dear , not temasek . now , THATS different . and my dearest boogey'swife , i hope we cn go tuh temasek together . hais .
anw , did u receive the msg i sent u , saying " its onli rp lahr . xxxxxxx " ?
cos u didnt reply . so yahr . i was worried blahblahblah .

- ll feel damn wrong and shiity inside if my friend is having problems/in trouble
shall not elaborate on this . it ll jes waste my time .
anw , i hope chan noe this . rmb the OBFRIEND 's incident ? yes . hais .







chandini . replying to ur post in ur blog .
i wasnt angry at all .
the reason i typed "was "PSED" " , was becos u tot that u PSed me !
i typed out the "" leh ! i understood y u couldnt come , and really100000000 i wasnt NOT ok !
i dunno how many times i said this but , ITS ONLY RP !
its ok lahr . heeeeees [ see ! y the hell m i HEHEEEING ?! random -.-]
chan , dun feel bad or anth k .
u r mah friend , in fact one of mah closest frens .
seriously , if u cnt go tuh tp nx week , fcuk it i ll not go too .
and i m not joking .
oh yahr . my USED TO IT , s referring to how many times mah plans have failed in the past , both PS-ed & with good reasons .
i noe that i cnt do anything tuh change ur decision , thats y i said ITS OK & let it be .
chandini , i m not THAT naiive&blur to complain abt all this shit .
ok fine i ll admit it . i was a bit hurt when u rote ( i ll tell u later ) part in ur blog . thats it .
& yes , i noe i m irritating lahr ( u haven tell me yet , but jes saying (: ) . real sorry .
u rmb that night in obs , we talked&talked&talked .
i love that moment sia . do it again sometime can ? heeeees . cos , FYI , u r the onli one i cn talk tuh abt this kinda things .
nono ,. almost everything . i jes wish u wud believe me .
hais .